From the first to the sixth grade of elementary school, I studied in a country school, and the atmosphere around me was not strong, so I easily won the first grade. This was so good that my parents and relatives mistook me for a school bully and had especially high expectations of me.
But as soon as I entered junior high school, my grades began to decline. Every time I failed a test, instead of giving me encouragement, my family scolded me and blamed me, which made me feel especially bad.
Mom and Dad always said that the family's finances were tight and that people looked down on our family, so I had to strive for success. They also bought a second-hand house near a major high school, carrying hundreds of thousands of dollars in mortgage payments, saying it was to create a good environment for me. But I'm only in junior high school, it's unknown whether I can get in or not, the pressure in my heart is huge, but they think it's only natural for me to get in.
Add to that the fact that my grandmother was all kinds of disgusted with my mom as well, and I was getting so psychologically burdened that I could hardly breathe.
When I really didn't get into a major high school in the midterm, my dad started to irritate me constantly. As soon as they came back from overseas, the first thing they asked about was their grades; when I stayed at my grandmother's house, they still woke me up the next morning to ask about my grades.
My teacher said I could get into a major school with my score by having some connections, but the second middle school I could go to was far away from my home, and my parents were too much trouble to ask for favors. They said they were doing it for my own good, but I really couldn't hold out any longer.
Learning is certainly important, and it may be a shortcut to success, but learning is by no means all there is to life.
I can see that you're level-headed and can calmly analyze your academic state, which not every child can do. However, it is obvious that your family has overloaded you with pressure, far more than you should be able to bear at your age, which is really unfair.
Let's say that we are not obliged to take responsibility for other people's lives, but we have to take responsibility for our own. So whatever people say, it's just what they think and you don't have to accept it. I'm not suggesting that you antagonize your parents, but rather that you find a balance: listen to what they say if it's right, and listen to what they say if it's not. After all, you have to grow up to be independent, and your parents can't be with you forever. Simply put, first be responsible for yourself, to live well, only in the future to be able to return the family.
But all that assumes that you can't fall down and that you don't have to live for someone else. Allow yourself to live as you are, but be assertive. Don't deny yourself when your grades are poor, everyone has ups and downs. There are people outside of the sky, and there are people outside of the sky, and there are stronger ones, so keep a normal mind, and the gains and losses in front of you are just life experiences. When the pressure comes, see on the line, do not have to carry all the body. Carrying the weight forward is not necessarily good, the key to see if you are too painful to bear, if so, you have to adjust the direction, toward the road in their favor.
All expectations are predicated on you being healthy and happy. Without that, what's the point of success, don't you think?
Parents' anxieties are real, and understanding that can help you understand their behavior. But understanding is not the same as accepting it at face value, they should be responsible for their own emotions. Your emotions, on the other hand, have to be digested slowly, and that's your business. Got it?