During that time I was having trouble with everything at the office, I was particularly irritable, and from December of last year until January 24 of this year, I often lost my temper with my father at home.
We had a big fight on the 24th, I got out of control and said a lot of hurtful things, and my father sulked and drank white wine by himself afterward.
On the 25th and 26th, my father always chanted about tightness in his chest and not feeling well.
I didn't expect him to leave suddenly on the 27th. I keep asking myself: did I cause my father's death?
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I am quite upset after reading what you shared. The sudden death of a father is a hard blow for anyone to take. From a medical point of view, passing away is usually a sign that something has gone seriously wrong with the body's functions and it can no longer sustain life activities.But what you can't let go of is that because you were always angry with your father before, you spoke harshly during an argument, and your father drank afterward, you can't help but associate his departure with these things, and you can't help but ask, "Did I cause this?
Do you have an answer within yourself to this question? What do your friends and family think?
Doing the math, my father died in January and it's now June and you're still obsessing about it, so it seems like it's really affecting you deeply. The dead are gone and the living are inevitably sad and nostalgic, but life moves on. It is recommended that you talk to a professional counselor sooner rather than later and not carry the burden alone. I hope you are slowly getting better.