Today at the hostel, when the owner and my mom were chatting, my mom mentioned that she only wished me good health, peace and happiness, and then the owner of the hostel said, "Buddha bless you with good health".
But I subconsciously wondered if she was cursing me to die early with that comment.
Then today my mom went to a small clinic to hang a bottle and waited quite a while. I was hungry, so I bought a snack with the money my mom gave me. Somehow the atmosphere made me feel like it was wrong to do that, like I shouldn't have. When I left the clinic, the owner of the clinic said something like, "I've let you starve for so long". I smiled and said it was fine, but I felt that she was blaming me for her eating in the clinic.
Is this just my own psyche playing tricks on me?
How are you?
In fact, many times there is a reason for such thoughts. It seems that you are more likely to feel ill will from the outside world, such as feeling cursed or blamed. But it's important to distinguish whether this is really intended by the other person or whether it's a feeling you have in your own mind. There is a difference between the two. If you sometimes find it hard to distinguish the truth, that sense of confusion may make you feel panicky, not knowing whether the malice is coming from another person or yourself. It's true that this kind of situation can easily get out of hand. However, none of the feelings are empty, so when you're not sure, it's worth asking the other person directly to see how they react before you make a judgment.