Recently, I was looking through a list of dreams I used to write down and suddenly realized that I seem to have thrown away a lot of my persistence and I can no longer find that feeling of not being able to help but be happy just because I'm alive.
Life feels so unreal, floating like a passerby. I'm a very soft-hearted person, and I can always put myself into a story or a movie and be sad or happy along with the characters.
To be honest, I really don't want to live an ordinary life. I always feel that I was born to help others, and I'm willing to approach those who are not liked with the gentlest attitude.
But it sounds like a dream and it really is just that. Now I'm so tired, tomorrow I have to do things I don't like again, but when I stop, I don't know what to do, even what I like is blurred, I'm so sleepy, if only I could sleep all the time. What am I living for? No one has given me an answer, it's all painless, can't say I hate it, can't say I like it either.
A warm hug to you first!
Seeing your sharing, I can feel that you are a delicate, kind and emotional person. The fact that you can write out the confusion in your heart is already a good start, and I'll share some ideas below for your reference:
1,Regarding your mention of giving up on previous dreams and not finding joy in living.
I can tell from this sentence that you used to be passionate about life and have your own pursuits, but now you feel a big gap and feel bad.
In fact, dreams and visions of the future will change with time, experience and circumstances, do not dwell too much on the past, try to accept the present self.
2,You feel that life is misty like a tourist, sympathetic and easy to substitute roles, do not want to live a dull life, and believe that living is to save people.
It shows empathy and kindness, but be careful to learn subject separation - it's okay to feel other people's emotions, but don't let it affect your real life. Separate the virtual from the real, pull away from your emotions whenever you can, and take care of yourself.
3,You're feeling sleepy, don't want to do something you hate, stop and get lost, and don't even know what you like.
This sleepiness could be the body resisting what it doesn't want to do, and overall you lack clear goals. You can take a piece of paper and write what you like on the left side and what you can do on the right side, and look for intersections; if there are none, look for directions that can be improved through learning.
Then set a three to five year plan, break it down into smaller goals, accomplish a little bit each day, and reward yourself when you're done, like a cup of coffee or a small dessert. You can also make your goals public so that people can monitor you. Read more, exercise, take up a hobby, or participate in a charity event, since you like to help others.
As for why we live, everyone has a different answer. Think more about how to make life more meaningful, but remember to love and take care of yourself first before you have the energy to love others.
I hope these have inspired you!
Looking forward to meeting a better you, the world loves you with us~