Because of a major setback, I completely collapsed and was laid up at home for a whole year.
I did nothing but sleep every day and felt like everything was shattered, but I held on to a glimmer of hope that I might be able to get back on my feet if I met someone who could save me. But after waiting for a year, I could barely keep my eyes open, and I went through every day in a state of confusion. Then my mom noticed that I was in an abnormal state and sent me straight to a mental hospital. When I got to the hospital, the doctor prescribed medication at random without much questioning of my condition, the nurses ignored me, and no one talked to me. After two months there, I actually said I was better, but that could just be an illusion. I didn't hear any assessments or conversations and the hospital was nothing like I thought it would be. I wasn't sure what those medications were, and my parents began to ostracize me and treat me like I was crazy. Eventually, I genuinely felt like I was scrapped, never getting care, cycling through disappointment, and even wanting to leave this world with my disappointment.
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First, a warm hug for you! You've been "laid up" at home for a year because of the shock, and that's normal, everyone goes through a period of negativity after a setback. But the fact that you haven't recovered after more than a year means that you may be allowing yourself to sink. In fact, as long as you deal with the problem positively and adjust your mindset positively, you will be able to come out soon.
You are waiting for someone to save you, but in what ways have you signaled to others for help during the year? And who responded to you?
Mom was the first to notice something was wrong with you, what behavior made her decide to send you to a mental hospital? As doctors, they don't just prescribe drugs, could it be that you didn't realize they were having a conversation during the consultation? Normally, if you are judged to have a mental problem, the hospital will not let you out just because you say yes yourself. From what you confided, you can clearly think for yourself and know what you want, you just closed yourself off from outside contact after being frustrated.
You should now actively seek the help of a psychologist and receive professional guidance. Take the initiative to communicate your feelings with your parents and regulate your bad moods with the assistance of a psychiatrist.
With the help of your doctor, you can also try these methods of distraction in general:
1. Emotional channeling to release negative emotions from inside. For example, by drawing, exercising, writing in a diary, or talking to someone.
2. Find a new goal to replace the old one and gain a sense of accomplishment by achieving it.
3. Rational thinking, using reasonable thinking to re-examine the experience of frustration in a comprehensive manner, so as to actively forget the past.
There are many other people who love you and want to help you if you don't give up. Your parents may have gone about it the wrong way, but they are the ones who wanted you to be healthy the most. Looking back, did their black hair add silver strands to their worries? Your parents only want you to be happy and healthy, and they need you to be there. Make an effort for yourself and for them, you can come out of this.