I used to be a passionate and cheerful girl who dared to love and hate, but after experiencing two failed relationships, I realized that it seemed like I couldn't love anymore. Gradually, I couldn't even find the feeling of love, not only love, but also friendship, affection and even the kindness of strangers.
Those two relationships left me with deep scars: one was a betrayal, when my ex-boyfriend's booty call actually called to threaten me; the other was more like cheating or incompetence to love, when that boyfriend was with me but refused to be intimate, and later I suspected that he might be gay but didn't want to admit it. These injuries have kept me from coming out, and now I can't tell what true love is at all, and I always feel that all love is unreliable and no one will ever love me truly again.
Hello girl! It's really heartbreaking to see how confused you are, so I'll start by giving you a warm hug!
The reason you feel like you can't love anymore is because those two failed relationships hit you so hard.
In fact, relationship failure can easily cause psychological trauma.
So you may subconsciously choose to stop loving anyone.
Because by not loving, you can avoid getting hurt again.
This is a self-protection mechanism of the human body and is an instinctive response.
I suggest you consider talking to a professional counselor.
A counselor can help you better deal with the trauma left by those failed relationships.
Only after you have dealt with these traumas can you learn how to love again.
Also, it might be helpful to recommend that you read the book "Our Inner Defense: Ways to Cope with Everyday Psychological Harm" by counselor Ren Li.
I really hope you get this resolved soon and find the ability to love.
That's all I can think of at the moment.
I hope my answer can give you some inspiration. I am the answerer learning well everyday.
The world and I love you from here. I wish you all the best!